Tuesday, May 11, 2010

This morning I sit at my computer slightly dazed by the events of the past month. Never in my lifetime did I imagine that I would become a single mom. Oh, I have been living somewhat of a single mom life most of my marriage as my husband has worked extremely hard to provide for his family of six. Four years of nursing school followed by eighteen months of work as a nurse traveler took him far away from home and family. I pressed on in these times as a mother of four knowing this season would soon come to an end. Much to my surprise, the season has ended, and I find myself having to let go of the man I love. How do I do this? What does the future hold for me? Will my precious children survive? What will I do to provide financial security for my now family of five? So many unknowns surround my life. So many questions are yet unanswered, but I find comfort in these words:

"For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you search for me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13


Bonnie said...

Jackie, I just left a message on your FB....be assured of prayers that surround you with much love!!
Trust, Faith, Detachment, Perserverance, Patience, Steadfastness,..........you know these words and have "walked the walk"....be assured that guidance will be given you and doors will open for your direction!! Remember, "He watches over the sparrow!"
Hugs and Love
Aunt Bonnie

Stephie said...

Dear sweet Jackie,

There are many unknowns in the journey that you face. The verse you chose is perfect. Put your hand in the Lord's and just trust Him for this moment, and then the next and the next until you've done and hour and a day and a month, etc. Oh girl my heart is breaking with you. God does have plans for you. You will find Him faithful and true. He will be your Jehovah Jireh(your Provider), the Father to the fatherless and the Lover of your soul. Let me know if you ever want to talk. I walk beside you in this path.

Farrah said...

I love you friend!

jacqueline said...

Thank you all for your sweet words of encouragement. You have lightened my heavy load.

Bonnie said...

I love your butterfly analogy...keep thinking the beautiful thoughts! The light of knowledge and understanding will come. The Path will be made clear.
Friends and family are for "lifting" loads....Love to you and the kids!
Aunt b